While I was going through my divorce, it felt like there was no one there for me. I mean, my spouse had chosen to leave and contrary to what I believed and thought she believed she had chosen to leave and that is exactly what she did. I kept asking myself, “Why God don’t you stop this?” I know He could if He wanted and I knew that divorce was a terrible thing for a family to go through and I surely thought that He would put a quick end to this divorce issue.

It took many months for me to realize that God was not going to stop the divorce; actually it took until the time I got the finalized divorce papers in the mail. I guess there isn’t anything wrong with praying and hoping for God to work a miracle but I got in trouble because I started to get angry with God for not intervening. I guess in a way He was intervening; just not how I had expected. I came to realize that He had been working on my heart and I was changing, I was becoming more compassionate and forgiving. I was experiencing God’s grace in a way I never had before. I still have my days but I have let my ex go and I continue to lift her up in prayer, not to have her back, but that she would be drawn back to God.

In the midst of the divorce I was blind and I could rarely see God at work. If things weren’t going the way I expected I figured He wasn’t there. Now I can look back and see He was there the whole time but it was His will being done, not mine. He gave each and everyone of us free will and He wasn’t going to take that away just for the sake of saving my marriage.

If you find yourself struggling with divorce or any other problem that is keeping you in the dark, try to remember that God is in control and He is there watching over you. We live in a far from perfect world and He never said it would be easy but He did say He would not forsake us.